dchan: A white silhouette on a black background of a girl with mechanical  wings (suu silhouette)
Lately I have been contemplating names. I've begun to feel like the nickname dchan has somewhat outlived its use. For one thing, the letter "d" stopped having any particular meaning to me a couple years back. (It used be short for Dragon-chan, as dragons were something of a totem mythical animal for me in high school, but I've moved past that stage in my life.) Secondly, if you are at all familiar with Japanese, "dchan" is obviously gendered female. I've briefly considered using a different, more gender-neutral honorific, but d-san doesn't really have any real punch to it, d-sama sounds horribly pretentious, and I'm not overly fond of the way d-kun sounds. :\ Other honorifics exist, but most of them fall into the "overly pretentious" category. I'm also not super fond of the letter D by itself.

I could start going by my real first name on the internet, but I was raised back in the day when You Did Not Reveal Your True Name On The Internet. To this day I only use my real name for things like Stalkerbook (to keep in touch with RL people), and shopping sites that require credit card info (Amazon, etc.) Fandom-type activities are all under some variation of dchan or Ryuu Hime (which has outlived its use even more than dchan, but my email address for the last 6+ years has been under that name so I'm slightly stuck with it now).

I've begun vaguely considering ideas for a new internet handle-thing. Nothing definite, yet, but I thought I'd brainstorm some concepts that I feel are important to my identity below. Please feel free to toss out suggestions at me in the comments. It's always useful to see another person's perspective on the way I present myself.

Important things:
the color black (gray, purple and red are important secondary colors)
music, esp. gothic & industrial--The Crüxshadows and VNV Nation are important bands
science, esp. chemistry
neuroatypicality, esp. autism/Asperger's
asexuality (specifically panromantic, but in general too)
genderfluidity
anime/manga/Japanese culture
butterflies (as a symbol of change)
amaranth (as in the mythological flower that never fades--don't ask me why amaranth & butterflies are both very important symbols to me when they have almost opposite meanings!)

Note that I'm considering both name-like names and more username-y names, provided the latter has some sort of shortened form that doesn't sound too awful as a nickname.  Uncommonness s.t. it'd be regularly available as a username on sites would also be a big bonus.

Date: 2010-09-17 08:05 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] whatawaytoburn
whatawaytoburn: ([Misc] In the night)
Oh names, they are an odd and tricky thing. I understand having the need to change though, as I've gone through a myriad of usernames and try out various nicknames when I get the chance. There's actually a list of names on my computer that I would not mind using. I always said that when I get the chance, I'm not picking one name, I'm going to have a small arsenal of them that I use at various places so I would not have to settle on just one.

The one i use the most right now is Charlotte and that has a lot to do with the fact that Alex and I picked Charlotte and Morgan Tam together. Plus Charlotte has the nickname Charlie for when I'm feeling less feminine which is really nice.

If i had my way though, I would really just use a bunch of different names. I don't like settling on just one.

Date: 2010-09-20 10:03 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] execharmonious.livejournal.com
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I am just so glad that I'm not the only one who feels weird about settling and just wants... like, lots of names. Not even because LIEK OHMIGOSH THEY'RE ALL SO COOL AND I TOTALLY CAN'T CHOOSE, or anything, just because... they start to feel uncomfortable and too-tight after a while, like a snake's old skin.

I always wonder about what drives this feeling.

Date: 2010-09-17 09:03 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] cris_jones_smith
I just... picked a character that I had from a log time ago. I also went gender-non specific for various reasons and because I personally identified with him. He also changed genders a couple of times while I was writing him...

I have also outlived some of my old nicknames, so I'm right there with you. My old one used to be all in Japanese...

Not terribly helpful, but if you think of some ideas I'll vote on them <3

Date: 2010-09-17 11:44 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] yetregressing
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My internet name became my name because I, too, was raised in the Do Not Ever Reveal Your Name on the Internet Ever camp. And then it just became more comfortable for me to go by Ai and then. Yeah. I don't know. It's hard. Names and handles are hard.

...This comment is totally worthless. Sorry.

Date: 2010-09-20 10:02 pm (UTC)From: [identity profile] execharmonious.livejournal.com
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...oh, yeah. I completely sympathise about the awkwardness that ensues when you have a gender-specific handle and then you start identifying as something else. I always have terrible name issues; I shed handles like I change my socks. I don't know why, but like [personal profile] whatawaytoburn, I don't like settling on just one, either. It sounds odd, but I just never feel comfortable with one solid name, or shape, or... things.

I am rubbish at names so I can't really give advice (and it sounds like you have all the components in place and just need to tool around with a thesaurus until you find something), but yeah. I wish you awesome.

Ayulsa means "eternity" in a conlang, because I'm a nerd like that. I'm increasingly liking it, though, and people shorten it to Ayu, which is kind of fun and genderless.

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