https://dchan.dreamwidth.org/ A nightingale in a golden cage - Dreamwidth Studios Fri, 08 Oct 2010 22:40:43 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios dchan personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/584702/195457 https://dchan.dreamwidth.org/ 100 100 https://dchan.dreamwidth.org/2104.html Fri, 08 Oct 2010 22:40:43 GMT https://dchan.dreamwidth.org/2104.html I&nbsp;don't feel like I&nbsp;should be here.&nbsp; I&nbsp;feel like I'm suffocating--no,<em> asphyxiating</em>--emotionally.&nbsp; Like an astronaut in outer space whose helmet seal just broke. Except that it wasn't so much a catastrophic failure as a slow leak, so I&nbsp;didn't notice that my oxygen reserves were depleting faster than normal until it was too late to turn back.<br /><br />&quot;If my heart was a house, you'd be home&quot; and my home is 1500 miles away, even though I've lived in Southern California all my life.<br /><br />I don't know how much more of this I&nbsp;can take, to be honest.&nbsp; I'm gasping for air, and I'm quickly running out.<br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=dchan&ditemid=2104" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://dchan.dreamwidth.org/2104.html emo !topic: real world issues metaphor abuse public 0